hey there. i'm maria. im 19 years old and lost in my own mind... so as it feels. i dont know how to explain myself somtimes... i've been through so much shit... that went on for so long, it made me loose myself. as far back as i can remember.. there was hell with my family, to make it short. david (my ol' pops)... he's put my family through a lot of shit, bad verbal abuse. i smoke the sinsemilla, a lot :)... i think it's kept me sane all these years. anyways... i just got out of councling, and not because i wanted to, she left me hanging in the dark when i needed her the most, and shit like that fucks with me.. for weeks.

i work two jobs, never have a day off... ever. i just dropped out of the shitty as community college in my home town in NC. i moved away from a nice ass appt in charlotte and my two badass roomates and now i live at home with my 56 year old mother while david and my brother (dominic) are living in CT, he's a professional boxer and my dads his coach. But, im trying to start fresh now. i need this, i've realized i dont need a councler, they never really care. Im going back to UNCC next fall with my best friend Brie, and god damn, i cant fucking wait to get away.

nothings mine unless i say so <33